March 31, 2009
Three confidence-boosting/motivating things happened today.
- I got a paper back with the comment “This is an excellent paper.”
- I went to the gym.
- I made the Dean’s List.
And one not cool thing:
March 25, 2009
I want to be devoted and driven. But…I do fine.
This weekend should be “funtastic”. Today: school, GLAD, Steven.
When I was briefly in College Station last weekend, I thought about how it would be if I transferred to A&M. College Station is fine. I wouldn’t have to let the school change me. I would be near Russell and the couple of friends I’ve made there. And closer to my parents. But once I got back to Denton, that all went away. I love Denton. I love my school. I’m proud of my school’s history. It’s awesome! Russsell barely ever comes home anyway, so if I was there I still wouldn’t see him that much.
I’m recovering from a cold or something, which is preventing me from enjoying my newfound gymlove.
March 14, 2009
I’m home for Spring Break. I feel fairly distant from everyone. I carry resentment and negative feelings within my heart. I need to let them go, but I’m afraid. I’m afraid to bring things up with people. I feel like something is off with Russell. It must just be that he’s so busy. I know it’s pointless to complain about that. Oh well. I keep starting to ask him to take me home (we’re at his mom’s house), but I know if I go home alone with all these feelings I’ll just continue to feel bad. Or embarrass myself with my sentimentality. I wish I could take a walk, but it’s too cold outside. And pretty late.
I have to write a paper tomorrow on Arnold Bennett’s Old Wives’ Tale.
March 11, 2009
I think I will donate to the humane society as a vernal equinox offering.
March 10, 2009
I have a Literary Analysis and Criticism midterm on Thursday. I feel unprepared. I will study in this public forum.
My favorite critical technique is…DECONSTRUCTION!
It was founded in America in 1966 by Jacques Derrida.
Derrida was influenced by Saussure, who was the main guy of Structuralism. Yes, “main guy.”
-He agrees with Saussure that “language is a system based on differences.”
-“We can know the meaning of signifiers through and because of their relationships and their differences among themselves.”
His disagreements with Saussure regarding signified.
-“Signified can also be known only through its relationships and its differences among other signifieds.”
-“Cannot orrient or make permanent the meaning of the signifier because the relationship between the signifier and the signified is both arbitrary and conventional.”
-“Signifieds often function as signifiers.”
There is no transcendental signified!
-(external point of reference upon which one may build a concept or philosophy)
-For each center, an opposing center
-One is superior and defines itself by its opposite
-good/bad, life/death, white/black
Flip the binaries!
-Take yourself out of your comfort zone.
-Forge an identification with the “bad” character or ideal
-Broaden your understanding!
March 6, 2009